So I just finished my 2nd week at my new job and I am loving it. It’s a little stressful not knowing all the answers and getting use to a new routine, but it’s a good stress learning new info. I am the type of person that is uncomfortable about change. I am a heavy analyzer, preparer, and over thinker so when something new comes along, I like to be prepared. But I have learned that it’s easier, less stressful and better when you prepare, but take things in stride and as they come. You can’t prepare for everything, but you can prepare for change. That has been the hardest part lately. I have a lot of change coming my way and it’s been a little overwhelming thinking of all the possibilities and if I am ready for them, but my awesome husband has this annoying strength in what we call faith and is teaching me more about it. Apparently if you do what’s right and trust in the lord, things work out. Who knew? Funny thing is, I have been preparing all my life for changes to come, yet it still has me on edge. Am I ready for this? Is this right? I have blogged about this before, but decisions and choices are sometimes the hardest aspect of living in the unknown world and sometimes I wish there were a user manual so I didn’t mess this thing up. But there isn’t. And I can’t mess it up, that’s why it’s called life, and we learn from our mistakes. I look around at other people in similar shoes, then at others in shoes that don’t even fit me and I realize that no one lives a cookie cutter life. Our lives are like our finger prints. They are all different. Everyone has a figure print and there are different genres of prints, but all in all, they are all different. We grow up in different families and those families carry standards and way of life in them like each person has a different genre of print. Same but different. We all have expectations, and those expectations may change or not, but pressure comes from the family we grew up in.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Knowledge
How is it measured? Job status? Work experience? Degree? Number of books you have read? I like to think of myself as a well educated person. Then I have lapses. Some of those mental lapses are more extensive….part of them become permanent. I just left a job of 4 years that I was 100% comfortable in. I hated it but I was comfortable. Now I am in a job that I don’t know anything. It’s not so much a common sense job like my old one, but more of a knowledge based job, and I am finding my knowledge is less vast than I thought it was. I know that my knowledge is more than just job criteria but, and correct me if I am wrong, but I feel insecure about my current job knowledge and it makes me wonder how those that feel like this every day live. What I mean by that, is I wonder how someone can, make a mess of their life by not gaining knowledge. Not finishing school. Dead end job…. Granted knowledge has many different levels, it doesn’t have to be educational. Yet in order to make it in this world, you have to have“institution” knowledge.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Passion
I was reading one of my friend’s blog while I was bored to tears at work and decided I needed to blog. I have been wracking my brain, trying to decide what to blog about due to the fact that I don’t blog about my life, but more about subjects and events that I observe in life.
ANYWAY, my friend was talking about a passion of hers and how you have to have passion in your life.
That is so incredible true. Life is so busy, crazy and hectic. If you aren’t passionate about something in life, then you might as well be a roaming, charging robot. You only function, you don’t feel. Passion allows you to be human and to love. So I decided to be a sap today and blog about my passions.
Soccer-It’s basically the one thing I am good at and no one can take my love away for the sport. Even driving past a freshly cut, perfectly laid, green field, my heart beats a little faster. It truly is a beautiful game. I love watching it and witnessing a perfect diagonal run or a pass that has a faultless spin, speed and balance to it. It’s a game of intelligence, teamwork and skill. A perfect header, slide, tackle, shot, block, volley….and on and on. I think the best part is that you don’t have to play organized. You can take a ball in your back yard and work on any skill you want to.
Teaching- I know this probably sounds tacky and lame, but teaching is like an adrenaline rush for me. A rollercoaster thrill. Gut dropping, blood warming thrill. It’s something that comes naturally and somewhat of an addiction. I have all the patience in the world for children, which I think is why I desperately needed a job change. I have zero patience and tolerance for adults that don’t have common sense. Children are willing to learn and think of you as the all knowing goddess, although I know better. Plus what other career lets you act like a total goofball, and be cool for it.
My religion- I am not the best church goer, and will be the first to admit that on Sundays I would rather spend my time at home in my bed rather than 3 hours in uncomfortable clothes, pretending to listen…which in fact, I often do stay home…but it’s what defines me. Even if I weren’t LDS anymore, the principles that I have been taught and have been shown through examples have defined me. I complain a lot about the people in my religion because they can be so shallow and judgmental and so un Christ like and it pains me to see someone treat others with disdain and repulsiveness… but when it comes down to it, it defines who I am and who I will be in the future.
Brian- He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don’t know where I would be without him. Countless times he has comforted me though hours of tears and doesn’t complain about me when I need to vent. He deals with my goofy love of movies that he wouldn’t ever watch if he had the choice, but knows I love them so he deals with it, teasing me only a little. I get excited over the most goofy, small thing, and although he doesn’t get excited with me, he lets me be excited and will listen to my excitement without complaint. If you were to compare us side to side, we are so different. We have little in common. He is good at EVERYTHING and I am not. But for some reason it works.
ANYWAY, my friend was talking about a passion of hers and how you have to have passion in your life.
That is so incredible true. Life is so busy, crazy and hectic. If you aren’t passionate about something in life, then you might as well be a roaming, charging robot. You only function, you don’t feel. Passion allows you to be human and to love. So I decided to be a sap today and blog about my passions.
Soccer-It’s basically the one thing I am good at and no one can take my love away for the sport. Even driving past a freshly cut, perfectly laid, green field, my heart beats a little faster. It truly is a beautiful game. I love watching it and witnessing a perfect diagonal run or a pass that has a faultless spin, speed and balance to it. It’s a game of intelligence, teamwork and skill. A perfect header, slide, tackle, shot, block, volley….and on and on. I think the best part is that you don’t have to play organized. You can take a ball in your back yard and work on any skill you want to.
Teaching- I know this probably sounds tacky and lame, but teaching is like an adrenaline rush for me. A rollercoaster thrill. Gut dropping, blood warming thrill. It’s something that comes naturally and somewhat of an addiction. I have all the patience in the world for children, which I think is why I desperately needed a job change. I have zero patience and tolerance for adults that don’t have common sense. Children are willing to learn and think of you as the all knowing goddess, although I know better. Plus what other career lets you act like a total goofball, and be cool for it.
My religion- I am not the best church goer, and will be the first to admit that on Sundays I would rather spend my time at home in my bed rather than 3 hours in uncomfortable clothes, pretending to listen…which in fact, I often do stay home…but it’s what defines me. Even if I weren’t LDS anymore, the principles that I have been taught and have been shown through examples have defined me. I complain a lot about the people in my religion because they can be so shallow and judgmental and so un Christ like and it pains me to see someone treat others with disdain and repulsiveness… but when it comes down to it, it defines who I am and who I will be in the future.
Brian- He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don’t know where I would be without him. Countless times he has comforted me though hours of tears and doesn’t complain about me when I need to vent. He deals with my goofy love of movies that he wouldn’t ever watch if he had the choice, but knows I love them so he deals with it, teasing me only a little. I get excited over the most goofy, small thing, and although he doesn’t get excited with me, he lets me be excited and will listen to my excitement without complaint. If you were to compare us side to side, we are so different. We have little in common. He is good at EVERYTHING and I am not. But for some reason it works.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)